Letting go of Pernilla and embracing Penny

This week I’ve heard the most amazing things about myself.
When growing up I’ve always been that kind of girl that thinks I’m being classified and liked only by my looks (which I sometime still do), and that’s what I wanted compliments for – my looks. And when someone didn’t comment on it I felt like I wasn’t enough. Like I was letting my looks define who I was as a person.

This week people said to me;
You give the most amazing hugs.
You have such a beautiful soul.
You have this radiant energy.

Common Pernilla, what’s wrong with you? Sometimes when I look back I just want to slap myself in the face.
I have people around me that see me for more than just my looks, which helps me accepting myself just the way I am. This just makes me realize how incredible lucky I am to have people like this around me, every single day.

And the reason why I just called myself Pernilla is that my very clever and unbelievable mum said to me this week;
Why don’t you just let go of Pernilla and embrace Penny instead? 

Challenging myself every month

For Christmas I got a calendar from my mum where I have to do something special every month this year.
In February I needed to try on something new, and on Monday one of my friends took me skateboarding and it was so much fun! I loved it and I can’t say that I was that bad at it either. But, since it was the 29th of February, leap day, does it really count? Has it happen?

In March I’m gonna give meditation an honest chance to win me over by doing meditation everyday. I’ve tried it before but always give up every time cause I get bored. But two days in and still going strong.
There’s a few reasons to why I think meditation would be good for me;
– Relaxation in my body, especially my back which brings me pain everyday.
– I need to be more present, and I think this will help me achieve that.

March. The third month of the year. When did the time start going by so fast? If I was back home in Sweden now I would probably be in an argument with someone about how March actually counts as a spring-month. Which it does, and as soon as the spring pops out you just want to sit outside and wear shorts, even though it is freezing. But apparently it’s sunny in Sweden right now, shocker.
But I’m here, sweating my ass off everyday and loving it. I’m so not telling you this so you can be jealous.

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