Show that little devil some attitude

I was going to the beach the other day, I put on my bikini as usual and I’m standing there in front of the mirror in my bathroom and I’m like: ”WTF?! I can’t walk around like this on the beach. What’s that? Where did my two-pack go? Why do I have hair there, WHO has hair there? Why does everyone else come off so perfect but here is a blubb of fat with hair where hair obviously shouldn’t exist (Which I’ve seen on Instagram, thank you very much).”
Yes, very evidence based of me.

This was what was going on in my mind on Saturday morning before heading to the beach to chill with my friends, why am I ruining my day?

I know I’m always talking about body acceptance, and Health at Every size. Which I do believe, but I also believe that you can’t hide from those horrible thoughts that pops up in your head sometimes. Which I have, not as frequently as before – but that day they were horrible. It’s like a devil is sitting on my shoulder and shitting out every negative though I’ve ever had about my body.
Just because I put on a bikini. And accidentally was standing in front of the mirror.

So the old Pernilla came into my head and started thinking ”maybe you should just stop eating so much, do some squats”. And you know what the new, improved Penny did? She took her towel and went down to the god damn beach. Because I’m sure as hell not gonna let that little devil of mine decide if I’m ”worthy” enough of showing myself in a bikini, AT THE BEACH. And and I sure as hell won’t stop eating – because food is life.

So there might be some of you thinking: Then if you don’t like your body that much why don’t you do something about it?
But this is how I see it: If I would go to the gym for That reason, am I feeding a healthy behavior? No, I’m feeding a bad one.

You know what I always used to say when someone was complaining about their love handles?
”That means there’s just more of you to love”. Which is amazing.

Take it from me – if I can knock that little devil down, so can you (even if it’s maybe just for a second).

 

Start practicing self-care today

People always telling me ”Ooh, I’m so tired… I think I’m iron deficient.” Do Not diagnose yourself.
Some people are always too quick to think it is iron deficiency when they feel tired and fatigue. It might be that you are not getting enough vitamin B12, or folate because folate activates B12. And if you start eating iron supplements without knowing that is actually the problem, you might make it worse.
Things that often is associated to iron deficiency is being pregnant (hence, why focusing on getting enough iron when pregnant), that time of the month that we all love, or that there is an issue with absorbing iron. And several things can contribute to this such as medications (one type of stress to the body) or just that you are stressing your way through life.

So, here’s my topic for today;

Sometimes it is great to have a timeout.
For those of you who knows me, knows how I possess the great gift of stressing too much. About nothing. Or no, I stress about the smallest things – but I am an expert of the snowball effect – you know when you think of something small and that wheel in your head keeps spinning and spinning and soon you have five major problems you need to solve before your next breath? Yup, that is me.

This week has been incredibly stressful for me with heaps of assignments, presentations and yuck.
Stress in itself makes you tired and not working properly. I am absolutely drained after this week probably because all of the tension in my body is gone and I’m finally relaxing – and my anxiety levels are definitely not as high.

So waking up this morning I rewarded myself (mum reminded me to do this after I’ve finished one assignment) and relaxed. I would say that it is very important to reward yourself after finishing something that has taken a lot of effort to do. Like after achieving a goal, whether it is uni related or maybe health related.
I started the day with meditation (which I do everyday, but can’t really focus sometimes because there is a snowball in my head). There is this great app that I use called Insight times, and some of my favorite meditation teachers are: Melissa Ambrosini, Sarah Blondin (more of a motivation talk), and Brandon Alter.

Have you ever wanted to try out meditation? I dare you now! I know several of you are interested in starting to meditate daily.
It’s also perfect with this app because they track your meditations day by day and you earn stars. Making at least Me more motivated to do it!
And I know when you see all of these inspirational, calm yogis on Instagram they make it sound so wonderful and easy… and they are So spiritual and they have everything together.
Trust me, it is not that easy for all of us. It takes work. It’s a continuing progress.

Meditation helps me with my breathing, that is why I started to do it, because I feel like breathing helps me with the pain in my body. But it is seriously So Hard to get to that ”Special” point (Is she referring to sex or meditation? That is the question..). And once you are there you’e like ”yeeeeey, I’m there!!!”, and then it’s lost. Of course. Because you’re focusing on the wrong thing.
Meditation is not only about sitting cross-legged on the floor with your thumb and indexfinger touching (I’m too old to be sitting like that for longer than 5 minutes without pain), you can do it in a way that suits you. I sometimes lie on my bed, I sometimes lie on my yoga mat with a bolster tucked under my knees (removes the pressure on your lower back), sometimes I do some light stretching while I meditate. It’s all about focusing on your body and breath, and be mindful.
Do it your way.

Also, I would love some tips from you guys. I’ve started to reading a lot of books, especially spiritual books and how I can apply this to my life. Do you have any good books you can recommend me about body, mind, health?

Almost every morning I draw three cards that symbolizes something that I should think about a little bit extra that day, or I ask a question and let a higher power give me an answer. 

 

Health – what does it mean to you?

You know what I’m really tired of hearing?
”If you are studying nutrition, are you really gonna eat that?”

One thing people have to understand is that everyone sees health differently.
For some people health is looking good. For others it is going on the newest diet, being vegan, living dairy and gluten free, being as strong as possible, and for some people it is, sadly, not to eat at all.
We are all different.
I am studying nutrition and I promise you that when I graduate, my mates and I, we are not going to have the same opinions about health, even though we’ve studied the exact same thing.

For me health is moderation, in all its definitions, shapes and colors.

I’ve come such a long way to actually accept the fact that it is okay for me to eat that ice cream without guilt.
Before I had to call my mum just to get it approved that it was okay for me to have potato chips.

Since then, now, to me – all of me matter. My entire being. Not just my looks. I eat that ice cream because it makes me feel good, but then you should also see my fridge because it’s full of all this awesomeness that I like to call veggies! I eat very well to me, I may not be super healthy to you.

Instead of thinking ”this is going to make me fat”, I think ”how is this contributing to my health today?”. If it makes me happy/satisfied, yes, it will contribute to my well-being. And some days I just ask myself ”Am I in the mood for something sweet today?” No, then I won’t eat it – at that point they’re just empty calories that are not giving me any nutrients that my body needs, or contributing to my well-being.
Without this relationship with myself I might end up binge eating, as I am restricting myself from having something that I really want.

I attended a lecture a couple of months ago where a dietitian was talking about Health at Every Size, or the non-diet approach, which you know that I strongly support.
Anyhow, he said:
”One day you really want chocolate. But no, you’re not allowed to eat it as it is unhealthy. So you eat some almonds. The next day you are still craving that chocolate, but you have some more almonds and an apple. The third day you eat some almonds, an apple, and then some more almonds, then you end up eating the entire chocolate bar.”
This was a very clever thing for him to point out.
It is not as equally easy for everyone to stay ”healthy”, to ”hide” themselves from what they’re craving (I just picture myself running around in the grocery store with chocolate bars chasing me).
So imagine if you would have eaten that chocolate the first day? Maybe then you only would have had a little piece, instead of the entire thing. Then you wouldn’t have eaten those Extra calories that the almonds and the apples contributed with.
I wouldn’t say it works like this for everyone, but think about. Isn’t the things you restrict yourself from the ones you want so badly?

Just have in mind what health is to you, to your best friend or to your partner. It’s probably not the same.

To be honest, I’m ALWAYS eating when someone asks me what I’m studying (often sweets). Cause let’s face it, food is life.
So let me eat my God damn crepe!

Picture: Sara Ismar