Your body is capable of amazing things

Since I was 12 years old I’ve hated my body. Much like every other person.
I’m too fat – my love handles are too big, my hair is too fragile, my legs are too short. The only thing I’ve liked is my boobs. Well, at least since the age of 18.

I remember in sixth grade when my mum and I had a meeting with my teacher and I said that I was feeling left out by the other girls and she asked me why. My answer was “I am too fat”. WTF?!
I don’t even know if I believed it or not, but back then – I knew that if I was fat, there was a reason for me to be left out. Because I didn’t look like everyone else. And that was easier to face than the fact that I was weird. (Which I’m totally okay with now by the way). But where did I get this from? First of all, that I was overweight? And second of all, that there was something wrong with being overweight? Like that was an okay reason for being left out?

I study nutrition, and even if I’ve been taught the information to why the body needs the food we eat – all this information blows out the window that one second my brain starts to go on and on about how “I am too fat.”
But now I say I’ve had enough!
My body is a freaking powerful machine. I got hit by a car in 40km/h and here I am! I’m like freaking wonder woman or something. I’m not saying that I’m immortal. But why do I put all my energy into feeding my body with negative thoughts about how it looks instead of loving it?
My body is awesome.
It’s been there for me through my 27 years here on earth. It walks, swims, breathes, smiles, cries, and beats, “plays the guitar” (at least that’s my intention), lifts, kicks, dance.
When did I start let my looks define who I am?

From now on I’m treating You with love, kindness, respect and gratitude. Everything that You deserve. Everything that I deserve.
I am a soul, I have a body. But the body is one of our biggest supporters through life. So I will support You.


Photo: Isabelle Thelning 

Cacao and coconut granola

Variety is key to get a wide range of all the nutrients that your body needs – and also cause eating the same food over and over again is boring.
So last weekend I decided to create something new that I can have for breakfast.
I usually just look at different types of recipes online and use the part of them that I like and put them together.
So the other day I made a cacao and coconut granola that turned out to be superb:

  • Rolled oates
  • Coconut flakes
  • Shredded coconut
  • Raw cacao
  • Cacao nibs
  • Hazelnut meal
  • Walnuts / peanuts
  • Chia seeds
  • Sesame seeds
  • Sunflower seeds
  • 1 dl Coconut oil
  • A dash of vanilla
  • Salt

I mixed all of the dry ingredients, melted the coconut oil with the vanilla and poured over the mix – mix again.
In the oven for 45 minutes on 120 degrees.
An easy recipe, but oh so good!

All of these ingredients are bought from my friend Jenna at The Source Bulk Foods in Maroochydore, go visit her and say hi!

 

My word – BALANCE.

I moved into my new home about a month ago, and something was really off with my room.
I had a freaking window in my room, out-looking the staircase in the apartment. So people that were in the apartment could actually see into my room. And there wasn’t any glass, just a whole. In my wall.
So I got myself a plywood board and pinned it up with duct-tape (I always thought it was called DUCK-tape), and it did not look very good. At least no one can see into my room so I could walk around naked, loving the feeling of being free!

My idea was to put up a curtain to cover it. But then I was talking to my mum; make it into a vision board! Yes, my mum is all for making vision board – she loves it. And she is my inspiration. So of course I said yes.
And this was a day (a week) that I was not feeling very motivated and I just needed something to push me. So yeah, sure, I’ll make a vision board out of it.

My travelling list is on it.
That I need to fall in love with myself.
That it is safe to be vulnerable.
What I need to do to heal my body and soul – creativity, meditation, yoga, breathing.
I tried the creativity part by drawing the sign of Capricorn, – I really need to work on my creativity.

And biggest of all says the word;
BALANCE.
That is something I need right now. To find balance, mentally.

I’m loving the energy this day is giving me

This day started off really bad and I was just irritated about everything – the effects of yet another night of bad sleep. And you know that feeling when you’re trying to think happy thoughts but it’s just now working – you just want to crawl back to bed. I literally had to tell myself before I walked out of the door to start my day; ”I can do this.” And boy, I did.
Went to a yoga class at The Spit here in Mooloolaba with some lovely people, and it was exactly what I needed to calm my mind. So Saturdays at 8 am, let me know if you guys are keen to come with me next time!
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Later on Alle and myself ended up at the beach, where I was trying to remind myself to be grateful for this amazing place I live in. It is so freaking beautiful here and I wish all of you could be here with me. We talked old memories and just laughed about how cray cray we are sometimes!
The absolute best thing about this day was my lunch, me and some friends of mine had a three hour long lunch with stimulating conversations about everything and nothing. It is so uplifting to know that I have people like these that I can share my thoughts and emotions with, they are so loving and they give me so much energy. For that I am grateful!

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Letting go of Pernilla and embracing Penny

This week I’ve heard the most amazing things about myself.
When growing up I’ve always been that kind of girl that thinks I’m being classified and liked only by my looks (which I sometime still do), and that’s what I wanted compliments for – my looks. And when someone didn’t comment on it I felt like I wasn’t enough. Like I was letting my looks define who I was as a person.

This week people said to me;
You give the most amazing hugs.
You have such a beautiful soul.
You have this radiant energy.

Common Pernilla, what’s wrong with you? Sometimes when I look back I just want to slap myself in the face.
I have people around me that see me for more than just my looks, which helps me accepting myself just the way I am. This just makes me realize how incredible lucky I am to have people like this around me, every single day.

And the reason why I just called myself Pernilla is that my very clever and unbelievable mum said to me this week;
Why don’t you just let go of Pernilla and embrace Penny instead?