I’m being my most imperfect self

About five years ago I used to love my butt, I thought it was my best feature. And then Instagram entered my life and now all I see is butts. Butts, butts and butts – everywhere!
And after that I started to reconsider my butt.

A couple of weeks ago I was in class and we started talking about cellulites. And you know how when you’re sitting down you get dimples in your thighs, and you always check if they are still there whenever you are sitting?
No?
Me neither….
Anyway, I told the girls that they are just dimples – from your vagina being so happy.
Which means my vagina must be really happy. How about yours?

Isn’t it funny how we keep comparing ourselves to others? And there’s always that one special thing. Like mine – butts, obviously – I always look at butts, I’m sorry, but I do. And I’m not afraid of telling people when they’ve got a strong butt game – however, they often don’t seem so comfortable with hearing it. Probably because they have their own mindset about what their body looks like.

I am a big advocate for Health at Every Size and the non-diet approach. Because I don’t believe in diets. They set you up to fail and when you do you feel even more shittier about yourself than you did from the start. And why put your body through that stress? Mentally and physically? Cause let’s face it, the weight you lose you regain within 3-5 years and sometimes another few extra kilos, if you don’t know how to maintain your body properly after that weight loss.
No thank you, I say look at your life from a bigger picture – how are you not contributing to your life in a healthy way? Maybe you should reconsider your options when it comes to snacks? Eat more veggies? Do that morning walk every day? Meditate? Go to the gym a couple of times a week? Don’t beat yourself up mentally when you eat one tiny cookie? It is not only about your looks.
Don’t get me wrong – being overweight or obese contributes to several health problems around the world such as cancer. And doing a drastic lifestyle change to try and lose weight is a struggle for most people. But no matter what you look like you should not put yourself down for it. So put your focus somewhere else – by starting to cut back on unhealthy habits and replacing them with healthier ones, and by giving yourself time, you will notice a difference.

I have my own struggles, trust me.
Earlier this week we did a body composition analysis in my sports nutrition class. And my body fat was above normal – and my reaction wasn’t the best, and of course I was beating myself up mentally for liking ice cream too much (and most of you are just laughing now cause I’m a tiny person, but EVERYONE has their struggles).
I came home later that day and my roommate enlightened my very dark mind: ”If you would lose that 1.5% body fat would you feel any different? Why would you look at some numbers instead of actually listen to your body and how it is doing?”
Right then I realized, it’s got nothing to do with the fact that I’ve gained fat mass but more about that I’ve lost muscle mass since the accident (understandably). And I go to the gym to get strong, not to lose weight or look any different.
But if growing a butt is gonna make me look even better then I’d happily accept it.
My point is – my body fat levels do not tell me anything of what my body is capable of – like doing an almost perfect squat without any pain in my lower back. That is winning to me.
Your body is supposed to carry you for several more years to come, so don’t hate on it!

You know what I do pretty much every morning? I dance. In front of the mirror. Naked. And this is what I like to call my sexy dance-time. Listening to whatever J.LO song is available and pretending like I can twerk. In slow-motion of course, cause I can’t hump that fast to be honest. Try it, I promise it’ll make you happy.
So right now I’m telling myself to love my body, with dimples, saggy bum-cheeks and everything.
Feel free to love your body, no matter what it looks like.
And be naked when you have the opportunity!
In that way other people can appreciate your gorgeous body.

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